April
2008 was a blur of physio, acupuncture and chiropractic appointments. My health
benefits came nowhere near to covering my expenses so I went straight to work
the week after the accident; between the physical agony and the daily hangovers
my work activity level plummeted. I was still successfully selling but I was
doing the absolute bare minimum to keep my income acceptable and when the
senior brother called me into his office one afternoon I was expecting the
worst.
I
couldn’t have been more wrong though. He had noticed the changes in me since the end of my marriage and the accident and had a proposition for me. He
suggested that a fresh start and a change of scenery was the best solution for
my run of bad luck and that a newly created position in the Okanagan was mine
if I wanted it. Even better, he offered to take me under his wing on a
mentorship with an eye to becoming a partner in the company.
I was
overjoyed!! I had spent most of my life in BC and even though I had family and
good friends in Edmonton, I was tired of the rut I had dug for myself and I accepted
both of the offers immediately.
The coaching
began right away, and in a series of meetings we negotiated the new position, compensation
and benefits. I was to move out to Penticton to open a new office and develop
the south Okanagan territory. I would be a Regional Manager answering to the
head office in Edmonton, and I would be required to hire the staff and run the new
office. Eventually I would become a full partner in the company with the
potential to take over complete ownership once the brothers retired.
Almost
from the start there were red flags that should have caused me to back away.
First, a colleague let slip that she had been made the same offers months
before and had turned them down. Second, there was nothing but confusion regarding
when the move would actually take place. I pushed to go right away, but there
were a series of lame excuses and avoidance as spring turned into summer until
finally he relented and set the first week of October as the date I would head
out to Kelowna to start my new adventure. My brother found a new place to live;
I negotiated to break the lease in my rental home, packed my belongings into
storage and made all the final preparations to head west.
I hadn’t
reached rock bottom yet but I was now moving into position to see it if I looked
hard enough…
"Florida" Modest
Mouse
Although
we often wondered, it was no thing of wonder
The
shit that flew from our minds
Well,
grass stains and fresh fruit remind our shoes of horse glue
On
this ridiculous climb
With
great tunnel vision, we built ourselves a mission
To
ride out motives inside
Oh,
with vague description of what we have been missing
So why
would anyone try
It was
always worth it
That's
the part I seem to hide
And
the busy ant empire
Put
all your clothes inside
I
wasn't always cargo, I was kind of my own
I
guess I'll pack up my mind
I it
took so much effort not to make an effort
Oh,
what a flawless design
It was
always worth it
That's
the part I seem to hide
And
the busy ant empire
Put
all your clothes inside, even as I left Florida
It was
always worth it
That's
the part I seem to hide
And
the busy ant empire
Has
always were to hide
It was
always worth it
That's
the part I seem to hide, even as I left Florida
Far
enough, far enough, wasn't far enough
Couldn't
quite seem to escape myself
Far
enough, far enough, far from Florida
We
were all drowsing in cruise control
Far
enough, far enough, wasn't far enough
I
stood on my heart supports thinkin'
Oh, my
God
I'll
probably have to carry this whole load
I
couldn't remember if I tried
I
couldn't remember if I took my brain out
Threw
it so directly at the goal
I
couldn't remember if I, I could have my mind erased
And
still not know exactly what I don't already know, even as I left Florida
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